After 2 failed suicide attempts, I checked in to Milwood. My insurance did not begin for another week. The staff was very friendly and respectful, however the psychologist, Dr. Malone, would not even talk to me. My first morning with him, I entered the room (Dr.s examination room). Before I said hello, he said ""You don't have insurance, wel'll keep you one more day"" closed my file, and sent me out.that night I had one pill at bedtime. I still had suicidle thoughts, I had no idea what was wrong with me. The second day I entered and he said ""no insurance, you're family will not afford this, you'll be discharged, in the morning"". That night I took my one pill and sat up all night worried about what could be wrong and thinking nonstop of suicde. The third morning he handed me my file to go to the discharge desk and said ""don't open this, you won't like it"" I had been a perfect patient...attending very class and group, smiled and joked w the staff. As I handed my file to the nicest tech, Heidi, she could see my expression, and could see thoughts were racing through my head. She quickly went to the administrator and told me I was staying. I burst out in tear because all I wanted was to be safe and find out the cause. The fourth day I entered the room (it was mandatory). He handed me my chart, and told me my family refused to pay his fee, and maybe I should have better support. At 27, I knew my family very well. He handed me my discharge, and said ""I do t know what wrong, I don't know if this rx will help at all."" I then found out the one pill he had prescribed was just a benedryl. Three nights of no help. I walked out and called my mom, she said they had already talked to the business office and I was staying, they hadn't heard from them that day, my entire family was chipping in. I broke down again, I had let go of my pride and begged for help, from someone that could help, and instead he dismissed me, lied to me and never gave a damn. He said I could come to his private practice, but that will cost. Upon release, I found a psychologist. I went to her 2 days later, and she listened. To me and finally diagnosed me. I had severe manic depressive disorder, and bipolar tendencies. The one prescription he sent me home with, was a strong anti-depressant, and ANYONE with bipolar can not take one or the suicidle thoughts multiply. The Dr. Found it strange I smiled when she diagnosed me, but I was so happy that I had a diagnosis and that I can fight it now. I understand the Dr. Sees thousands a year, but to be so careless with my life, to send me out when I was going to kill myself, and with a. Prescription that amplified those thoughts....if I wasn't serious to help myself on my own accord, he would of killed me, all over money.
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